Saturday morning Steve was working, and he was up really early, I soon realised he'd set the alarm especially early so we could make love before he went down to work. Not that it took very long, we're both horny as hell first thing in the morning.
I got up later and went down to breakfast - he was taking the breakfast orders, and looked so cute in his uniform (and took my order before everyone else's, which was nice and made me feel a bit like a VIP). Then he was cleaning rooms, so I slept until 11, then got up and showered and went into Coniston for a walk around and a cup of tea. He wasn't due to finish until 4, but about 2.30 it started to rain so I went back to the hotel room to read. Two minutes later he turned up - he'd been let off early.
It was quite rainy, but we went into Coniston to drink anyway. It was nice sitting outside when the weather brightened up, but whenever we met people he knew, Steve was on edge. The exception was when we met Ricky, who gets his heroin for him - so I get the feeling he knows what is going on. Steve also said at one point, 'whenever I've spoken to anyone about how I feel about you, they all say what the hell am I doing', so I think Ricky must be one of the people he's spoken to. Down side was that he got heroin from him.
He'd had to take extra methadone before we'd gone out, and even after that he was insisting that he was rattling, so I think he's really been taking a lot of heroin when I've not been there, and not having any since Thursday had got to him. He's even mentioned how he'll get £10 worth one day, £20 worth the next. So I'm really quite worried about him.
So he took the heroin and was drunk, so then when we went back to the hotel, he was really upset because he couldn't get an erection, despite what he thought was my best outfit yet - a little mini-dress with stockings, hair up,glasses and no knickers.
I told him not to be so stupid, he was drunk and off his face, and should just go to sleep, because he was exhausted and it was midnight anyway. It was actually really nice just snuggling up and kissing until we fell asleep.
