Last Night Steve said he'd not spoken to his boss about me staying in his room this weekend, and so I was feeling a bit despondent, because I thought that must mean he wasn't that bothered if I was there or not - even though he still was using his loving voice to me (rather than the businesslike one he uses when he wants to keep a distance).
This evening he phoned and things seemed different again. I wonder why? He sounded really caring again, and said he didn't know if he was going to ask her at all, I should just come anyway and he'd deal with any problems if they arose. Which kind of cheered me up, especially when he said he missed me.
So I'm feeling a bit more optimistic. But we'll see. Yesterday Mandy (my sister) said that next time I feel myself believing him I should phone her up and she'll tell me what he;s really up to, because him and Simon (her ex-husband) are two peas in a pod. I'm not going to phone her 
