I've been feeling pretty shitty all day with a sore throat and my chest is still hideous. Possibly the reason I'm not more upset or stressing or anxious is because I am too ill to be.

I have been telling myself that whatever happens, I am not opening that door and not responding to ANY communication from Steve, because I am useless at being strong when he is near me, I always end up letting him back in somehow. So a complete break is the best thing.

That is assuming he will try to contact me, which having been beaten with my shoe may not happen!!!