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Spookily detoxed from whoknows 10 days old

Right, I have no clue what Steve is up to here. A few hours after I'd finished writing on Sunday, he turned up here off his head on heroin. Obviously, ...

I Just Can't Leave Well Alone from whoknows 12 days old

So last night went pretty much to plan once my madness was over - until 2.30am. I went to bed soon after X-Factor, about 10pm, cos I'd had a bad night ...

Bizarre Event from whoknows 112 days old

I am sitting here and can't quite believe what has happened this morning. Being my usual insomniac self, I was up about 4.30: wide awake and drinking ...

If Only Life Were a Story from whoknows 131 days old

Small Child clambers into my bed with his teddy. 'Is that the end then?' he says. 'The end of what?' 'The story of you and Steve.' 'I suppose it ...

Feelings from whoknows 134 days old

All through today I've felt a bit weepy, for no real reason. The adventure playground place was closed for a function, so we went into the nearest ...

Thursday Morning from whoknows 134 days old

I think I feel worse today than I did on Monday and Tuesday. I'm not anxious, but I'm angry with myself that I let Steve get to me. I feel sort of doomed. ...

What Happened Tonight from whoknows 135 days old

Steve turned up on time, and initially at least looked to be quite normal. He was very apologetic, saying all the things that always win me around. I ...

Preparation from whoknows 135 days old

I've no idea if Steve remembers he's supposed to be here, sober and drug-free, at 7.45. He phoned and texted several times last night until about half ...

Work and Home from whoknows 136 days old

So yesterday went ok in the end. At work I chatted about what had happened with the boss and one of the assistants (they both know all the background) ...

This Morning from whoknows 137 days old

I slept ok last night, and had a real job waking up this morning, probably from lying up late reading. When I came downstairs I found that Steve had ...