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Bizarre Event from whoknows 102 days old

I am sitting here and can't quite believe what has happened this morning. Being my usual insomniac self, I was up about 4.30: wide awake and drinking ...

Feelings from whoknows 124 days old

All through today I've felt a bit weepy, for no real reason. The adventure playground place was closed for a function, so we went into the nearest ...

Thursday Morning from whoknows 124 days old

I think I feel worse today than I did on Monday and Tuesday. I'm not anxious, but I'm angry with myself that I let Steve get to me. I feel sort of doomed. ...

What Happened Tonight from whoknows 125 days old

Steve turned up on time, and initially at least looked to be quite normal. He was very apologetic, saying all the things that always win me around. I ...

Preparation from whoknows 125 days old

I've no idea if Steve remembers he's supposed to be here, sober and drug-free, at 7.45. He phoned and texted several times last night until about half ...

Refusing to Talk from whoknows 126 days old

Steve turned up here at about 9.30, not completely wasted but visibly shit-faced. He was crying and saying he loved me and was sorry; that he'd bought ...

Home Again from whoknows 126 days old

At work I'm ok, because I know that Steve's not going to turn up (he doesn't even know where any of the places I work are). This afternoon I had to drive ...

Work and Home from whoknows 126 days old

So yesterday went ok in the end. At work I chatted about what had happened with the boss and one of the assistants (they both know all the background) ...

This Morning from whoknows 127 days old

I slept ok last night, and had a real job waking up this morning, probably from lying up late reading. When I came downstairs I found that Steve had ...

Revolutionary Road from whoknows 128 days old

I've just watched the film, and it was a bit unsettling. The rows they had were like mine and Steve's 'normal' rows (the ones where he didn't hit me). ...